My senses have changed. Because of my shakiness, any vibration from noise or even music causes some nausea even when I sing. All sounds overlap with the roar of tinnitus, especially when I’ve exerted myself mildly. I can’t trust my sense of being upright with my eyes closed and I have a sense of shifting, even of dropping down like turbulence on a plane. Taste and smell are muted and sometimes altered. I might smell something burning or be barely able smell my coffee. My vision shudders and narrows when I’ve done something as simple as making a meal and my eyes go crossed in the evening.
Since my specialists tell me their tests show I’m normal, I now have to wonder if I am to ignore each of the ways my brain has of interpreting my environment and my sense of well-being. I spent my first sixty years believing all those sensory experiences were a signal for caution.
Thank you for listening, jules